Critics at Work

09/11/2011

 
Q. My biggest area of limitation and absolute frustration (to the point where I have a very violent temper) is work where I feel that my individuality and sense of power and potential is crushed by idiotic authority figures in the work place. 

A. Initially your work involves accepting that the crushing, idiotic authority figure is within yourself. This inner tyrant is the source of so many of the other frustrations you mentioned in your letter and is a composite of much that you already know, i.e. parental influences, negative conditioning from very wounded and essentially powerless individuals who used control and negation to keep you in line...click 'Read More' to continue... 
 

Suicidal

10/10/2011

 
Q. I’m reaching out before the end of the line, trying to put myself together again and defeat the demons that want to drive me into a telegraph pole or agree to a permanent sleep. I don’t want less than body, mind and soul? Why is it so difficult to find my spiritual path?

A. Firstly, I’m not going to attempt to minimise the strength of the “demons” you’re facing. 

On one hand you do have a very difficult chart (Saturn in Scorpio squaring Moon conjunct Pluto, Venus conjunct Uranus square Neptune, Lilith conjunct Chiron conjunct Ascendant, Mars oppositions etc) and there’s no doubt this is tough shit to face. But you also have a gifted chart, not just because of the obvious (Sun/Moon conjunct Jupiter, Saturn conjunct North Node at the top of a kite involving Mercury and Chiron, a Grand trine between Mars, Venus and Saturn) but because of the tough stuff! 

And the tough stuff can and should be worked with, not to defeat the demons (an impossibility, you can’t destroy any part of self, however destructive it appears to act) but to transform them; not to block the pain with drugs but to embrace it and pass through it; not to implode your rage but to own it as part of your power... click 'Read More' to continue...