A. There are lots of different layers to this obviously painful and demoralising situation but the one that stands out the strongest is that this all has to do with the implosion of your own power...click 'Read More' to continue...
When we have this kind of energy within us operating unconsciously it can attract individuals and experiences that reflect the destructive side of the same power. This in turn aggravates the already existing feelings of powerlessness within, that also comes when this kind of potency is buried.
Now this sounds like a very cruel setup, and it is cruel in the sense that it activates some very toxic energies on the part of your so-called colleagues, but ultimately it’s a wake-up call from the universe. Your own deepest self and the powers that be have invited these people into your life to treat you this way, to draw your attention to what in you magnetised this experience. And clearly you are now intuiting this, a major first step.
And it is also true that it has come from certain transits. When you changed careers, transiting Neptune was just starting to oppose your Lilith and Sun, to be followed by Chiron, an unravelling and deconstruction of the old self that continues right up to now. This in itself will attract various projections from others but ones which also open up old wounds and reveal deeper unlived parts of self.
You were always going to have this kind of experience at this stage in your life; an astrologer could have spotted it at your birth. This adds a karmic dimension to your experience, as however painfully, you’ve been working through some old karmic debts at the same time. The good news is the karma is shifting and you will come into a much more empowering place inside of yourself in the coming years.
There is work to be done though, as these core energies around your Sun are also loaded up with a lot of carried and unhealed rage, with its accompanying toxicity. Both the Lilith position and the Mars/Pluto initially represent karmic and ancestral forms of distorted power in your system and you will need to draw on much courage and commitment to confront and work with these dark aspects of self.
You will need high quality, highly experienced therapeutic support to do so and I tend to recommend the more action based expressive therapies like primal, breathwork, Gestalt and psychodrama to get to the core of this, particularly because you are a fire sign person. Feel free to call on other gentler work to assist the mopping up of the psychic-emotional residues as well.
As this turns around, and be aware it will take time, you will start to step up and protect yourself better, as you are recovering a lot of warrior energy in this work, masculine and feminine. As the system cracks, people will also change in the way they treat you, but don’t feel you have to wait until that point to make outer changes. Transiting Uranus in now fully in Aries in your house of career, suggesting that you are warming up quickly to making strong, radical change and redirection professionally.
Working with kids and in education is valid for you on lots of levels but you are in the process of becoming more than just a teacher. The Sun/Lilith/Pluto/Mars in its healed, available form ultimately describes you as a great spiritual warrior who is also an agent of deep change in the lives of others. The process of getting to this will make you more psychologically astute, emotionally courageous and spiritually powerful, in ways that will call on you to go into bat for the vulnerable, disempowered and unprotected.
Who knows what this will look like but it will be worth the journey.