A. Absolutely! It is time for both outer and inner, and for deep and radical change.
The planet Uranus has been in Aries for the last 3 years and during this time has been trying to get you to move. Next year it will be trining your Midheaven (professional point) and sextiling your I.C. (point of home and family), while trining your Progressed Ascendant (how you project yourself into the world at this time) and sextiling your Progressed Descendant (your evolving relationship point).
This is encouraging enlivening and creative change right across your life and, Uranus is the antidote to excessive Saturn energy life that which you have been experiencing.
While Saturn is still in your First House, you have also had your Progressed Sun conjunct your Progressed Saturn for the last two years, so it has been very tough. However both these astrological events mean that this has been a time to step up in your own authority, become more disciplined in your life, to get clearer about who you are and how to express that in the world, to basically become more mature and psychologically adult. To put it bluntly its time to grow up!
And as you have seen, this is easier said than done, particularly since you have a huge amount of energy in the Fifth House and such a complex combination of sensitive, creative and wounded energy there. Having your Sun conjunct Mercury and Ceres in Pisces and, Psyche and Chiron in Aries, while opposing Pluto, Hekate and Uranus is a very tough gig for anyone!
Being born a Piscean (with great aspects to the sign’s ruling planet Neptune) means that you were born with some quietly brilliant spiritual, creative and psychic gifts. However the excessive sensitivity you were also born with, exaggerated by the positions of Psyche and Chiron, meant that you were over-exposed psychically to other people’s energy, including a great deal of wounded energy.
This is an incredibly painful and frightening place for an extremely sensitive little girl because you felt so unprotected and because you absorbed other’s fears about expressing themselves creatively and passionately in the world. (Think about your parents for instance and then imagine the fearful, wounded child in each of them. This is what you were tuned into and absorbing from them)
You were also born with a great deal of deep psychological and spiritual power, in the form of the Pluto/Hekate/Uranus conjunction but initially that was very difficult to understand and which felt like it existed in others but not within yourself. This has added to your fear as it has been projected outside of yourself. It’s important to know that this power exists within you!
Against this onslaught it is totally understandable to want to hide and not face these challenges in the world. The Piscean side of you turns into powerless victim mode and the whole Fifth House colludes with wanting to remain a child that needs rescuing.
So what to do with these challenges?
Firstly, do some really focused Inner Child work, either with a skilled facilitator and/or with one of the great manuals in this simple and gentle therapy (such as John Bradshaw’s “Homecoming” or Lucia Capachione’s “Recovery of Your Inner Child”)
This will help you get in touch with the little one inside you, to learn how to look after her better and to get a clearer distinction between the child and the adult in yourself.
Fire up your Fire Child, with heart-pumping exercise, creative dance like Five Rhythms, chakra or kundalini dance, or do some of the emotionally expressive therapies like primal or breathwork. This will support the awakening energies of Uranus and reverse your tendency to implode your energy in general. (You can also have some fun too)
You are a natural healer, also thanks to your Chiron, so develop this by doing both your own deep inner work and finding the right vehicles for getting this going. Reiki is a good place to start for instance, and then head towards the deeper expressive work.
Even though they will initially be scary, groupwork is a powerful place to explore yourself, your spirituality and your healing journey. With the presence of Hekate between Pluto and Uranus in the house of groups (and the Black Moon in Leo n the Midheaven!), check out things like shamanism, spiritual midwifery, women’s business, goddess traditions.
The sooner you act, the better things will feel, as my sense is that once you do, things will move quickly and often magically. While all this is going in on, your North Node of the Moon, which holds the visions of your ultimate soul purposes, is being opened by transiting Chiron and in the next years, by transiting Neptune. Doing these deep inner practices will help you get more in alignment with your soul’s longing and assist in you learning how to express the beauty and giftedness of your Piscean essence.